This World. (Updated)

This kiriban picture I upload next may be the last picture I upload for a long time.
My father just got laid off from work this morning.
We're going to be losing a lot of things now.

I just don't understand why HE had to get laid off. He was one of their best employees, and a head supervisor. According to his salary, he got 23 dollars an hour, working at the Guardian Glass Factory. But why did he get laid off? He and the other 5 supervisors were laid off because "they hadn't been there as long as the others". Even if they're an awesome employee, they can't fucking stay because of "seniority"? Fuck that shit.

So...in addition to losing Dish Network Television (which actually doesn't bother me as I don't watch television) we may also be losing the internet, and most of our belongings. My mom is currently working on cutting budget expenses. Drastically. He may be unemployed for the next 2 months, or even longer...so...I don't even know.

But, if worst scenario occurs, I just wanted to say that for the last 10 months I've been on deviantArt, I've met some pretty artists, who have have helped me learn more about things I didn't quite understand before. I've made some awesome on-line friends who helped cheer me up when everything else was kinda going topsy-turvy.

I can't think straight at the moment (haha gay pun), and I'm too wracked with worry and exhaustion. This past week has been a blast: car accident, my car is totaled, I barely make it into college, and now losing our source of income.

Whatever, it's life, right?
I'm losing faith again.

So, just in case I'm not able to say this later, and to everyone individually: Good-bye for now. Maybe all of this will pull through, and this entire journal entry was in vain, right? I hope so...I really do...but, I don't even know. But, I've really enjoyed viewing other's artwork, learning things from them and teaching things to others. I cherish these small connections we've made, though I don't even know you in person. To all of the people who watch me and support my art, I want to thank you, and let you know that I really appreciate it. And hopefully......well. I don't know.

I just hope this journal is in vain.

Update: So, we had a family meeting. We're cut back alot of things, but we're keeping television (minus a bunch of crap no one watches anyway), and we're keeping the internet. So I'm here to stay, a li'l bit longer. The situations not doing good though. For once in his whole life since he was diagnosed with PTSD, my father is showing emotions, and it's not good. I mean, showing emotions is good, but not the kinds he is showing. I hope this thing turns around soon...